By Degrees
By degrees indiscernible to my psyche's deepest memories,
Cacophonies and disharmonies of inordinate disproportion to reality
Weave silently through the caves of my slowly eroding brain,
Awakening me to the realization of my not innocuous degradation,
Making me take account of my fading away,
Into the airless desolations of a dark planet awaiting my arrival,
My breaking from all rituals and symbols, divine signs and wonders,
Which, once, gave me a reason for having faith,
Worshiping prophets, messiahs, saviors, the unseen,
Believing that life/existence/mortality/breathing/being
Was a privilege so inscrutable, ineffably beautiful,
That not even death could subordinate, exterminate its preciousness.
By degrees of disenchantment, forlornness, despair, waning energy,
I've receded into the penumbra of my autumnal sun,
Deaf, stuttering, enfeebled, eager to seek sleep's peace,
Tuck my senses between the sheets, for the rest of my destiny,
Find surcease, comfort, solace in the coming of the Oneness,
Who discriminates against no one who seeks His love,
His enlightenment reigniting my psyche's dimming memories,
Restoring that glorious glow my brain radiated
When conceiving immortality was as easy as recollecting eternity.
01/31/12
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